Life Whose Life

Mine - I am

A RANT-er; Most times my thoughts and speech dun run concurrently. Apparently, reflected in some of my posts. not very good at expressing myself in speech - people gets bored or confused when i tell stories. Nor am i good at expressing in words. hah. but i feel like it. so i am officially a RANT-er. If you get me straight away... let's sing and dance in the same bubble. Hmm, I luv to dance but i cant listen or even really remember what i had danced to. I luv to sing but can't sing at all. aka tone-deft.

A wife; I believe the non-concurrent expressions made my rants incoherrent. Thus, my BForeva believe that i contradict. sigh. But! he has signed his life for me so he has learned to understand me and taught me how to make him (and people) understand me. :P

He, my BForeva said I rescued him, but he rescued me first.

He requested for our wedding entrance song to be the STAR WARS Darth's tune. He remixed a CD for our guests to dance to (which they changed after a while). Most memorable part was, the speech he had prepared. It made me cry. He sang Lou Reed's Perfect Day to me. Even though the wedding was well... not perfect as I thought my wedding would be and that he had sang it as "such a LOVELY Day" instead, it was imperfectly PERFECT for us.

A Daughter, A Sister, A Sister of difft mum & dad (it's not abt blood), An Aunt and A Grandma!!

Born in a huge family of 7 sisters & 2 brothers 20++ kiddos..

Grew up with 4 Sisters and a Brother with 12 kiddos..

Married and got 3 sisters with 4 kiddos.. And yes, i'm a grandma.. My first nephew is just 2years younger...so yup, i have 2 grandchildren.

Anyhow, the numbers is only as of Jan 2016. :P

A Friend. Sadly to not soooooooo many. i blame age and time and adulthood and maturity or immaturity.

An Acquaintance to manyyyyyy. Eventually some definitely evolved to become friends. Yey!

A Malay - am not offended by stereotype names of a minah. I prefer a belacan.. sometimes proud to be one, sometimes not. But! never denied to be one. Most likely coz physically, i cant. lol. One pet-peeves of mine, those who shun to be a Malay especially infront of non-Malays. heh.

A Muslim - not a very good one, i want to write "i do try my best to be a good one", but... its not justifiable.hee. But! I am definitely conservative! Not much on the traditions, more on the ethics and mannerism.

A Singaporean. Worry a lot about living in Singapore. sigh. u cant really do much can you?! Gave up in becoming pro-whichever party and has demoted myself to a Singaporean who shall be with the White if it benefits me and shall be with the Red, or Blue or Rainbow whenever the situation is apt. heh.

An educator who is a firm believer of Education begins at home. A child should acquire the basic knowledge, skills & values from home. I love reading Glenn Doman's methods of optimizing potentials. I have this not-scientific proven theory that Shichida Right-brain teachings have islamic insights on educating a child. heh. I dream of bringing up a reading toddler, who will grow up not to be a genius but seeks and solves by reading.

A real estate agent with sincere interest in assisting home buyers and sellers to benefit on the loops of many many policies SG goverment has imposed. heh. A genuine interest in property in sg and believe in wealth through property appreciation, but sadly only when there's affordability.

A worker too. Currently, getting job satisfaction from a company thriving in ASIA's education industry. The learning curve has exposed me to many educational systems with one goal - to develop and equip the youths in the country. A disclaimer needed here though. Goals from an Academic & Business aspects many a times definitely do not align. hah. Anyhow, alhamdulillah for the opportunities presented.

ok, so main reason why you see this blog is coz I am;

A female with infertility issues. Mak, Mum, Nana or Inang are names i had hoped my very own heart or hearts to address me some day. Insya-Allah.

I could be your sister, your sister-in-law, your cousin, your aunt, your relative, your bestfriend, your close girlfriend, your fb friend, your instagram follower, your acquaintance, your neighbour, your supermarket auntie, your fav restaurant's waitress, your common stranger. I could be anyone. It exist. Infertility issues exist. Sensitive issue but one should not be unaware of. Choy! Yes, funnily even with all sorts of sources feeding us with extensive information, infertility is somewhat very much a taboo thing. I think so too, initially. Anyway, my humble sharing is not meant to change the issue from a taboo issue to its ok to talk abt it. Maybe just as a tiny weeny catalyst for those who is shy feeling negative abt it.

This infertility issue is the very reason why I decided to blog. I gained quite a bit from the sharings of many others online. From tips on how to inject myself painlessly to what to expect and not. As "paying it forward" i am going to share my journey too and may it help others like it had helped me.

Assalamualaikum.

I am Has Senah Nah.