After IVF #2

hassenahnah
Jan 20, 2016
3 min read

Reposted from Blog Dated Sept 2014

The attempt to rant out after failure of my #2 IVF

Born in a huge family and being youngest in my kind of big big family, I practically led a life in my own bubble.. De good thing is, I grew up a lil' faster, i looked around and knew very much what I wanted.. Not just - just that..just like wat I see everyday.. So I thrived in my own way, to be what I know I didnt want to be. lets just say, i succeeded to see my other peers outside "YISHUN". hahaha. not like its a bad thing being an Yishun grl just that i just knew there was much more than watever it is in Yishun hahahaha. by the way i heart and stiil defend my kampung whenever my close frens shun on our stereotyped Yishun-ians. (this issue, maybe next time) reminded me on how i was just super duper glad that I signed up to go see what A'levels was about at Jurong Institue aka the 3mth "social camp" after Olevels too..i miss those days.heh. OMG so much side track!!! (Got to wor on my topic focus. heh!) Anyhow was quite happy with life in general, it was indeed a good and smooth sailing life path.............

I got a job even before I went for my last polytechnic exams, not de most ideal job but it did pay off much of my fun throughout my yuppie years... It was about 4 years of culture shock and knowing the truth of the adult world and again i knew, it was - just that. i never really wanted just that. worse, i was so worried that i would rot. No..i luv the job really! The nature of the job is noble. An honest living, one would say. just that its revolting to kinda know how things work in such a noble industry. it was just not right and i didnt want to rot. no offense intended to my ex-colleagues and well, my family members who are in the system.. I compliment on you being the strong and that you had found peace and fun in it. I was the weaker link.

I wanted to live somewhere else. I wanted more. so whilst looking for the job, one came right to my face. It was an unexpected job... and with my parent being old, i thought ok prolly i'll live away for a few days but will be home most. and so I ended up living away..in hotels, hmm never more than 3 nites actually. haha. I got my current job even before I quit the 1st one and it jollywell paid off the young adult phase expenses of settling down as well as satisfying that materialistic superficial world nonsense phase.

It was that good of a path. one phase afer another with not much hiccups. Then I started to worry on what is it that He is planning to challenge me with.. Really! im the type who reflects quite a bit so i did questioned myself for many, many years. yar, im grounded like that. or cynical. i dun really believe in everything is good or always good. i always ask, wats the catch?! Then tadaaaaaaa.... There it is. Heh.

oh no, not this one.. this is "the selit daun" pix of my hmm.. somewhat my very first buy related to my "challenge". hee.

i customised it summore to commemorate the "it"!! its my biggest bag. why would u need a huge bag rite.. well i was thinking ahead, thinking of the future...

Will & Shall always end a post with my one habit : googling-on-Quotes!